Life of Daivanshi

At what point will I no longer be a student or entrepreneur or just any such an identity and just be Daivanshi? At what point will the conversations with people change from the what they do into what they feel? Every conversation that does include any unfiltered thoughts is now said to be “deep conversations” and is becoming rarer with the time passing by. This does not mean I am going against talking about anything but thoughts. What I am trying to understand how there are so many different aspects of life and we decided to somehow stuck on this aspect. This question arises not just for me but anyone lost in the loop of making their work their whole identity.

Not just the conversations, but even our identity we have created on social media. Everyone wants to be someone. If one wants to create content, the first thought is about the niche they want to choose. Why should there be a niche? Isn’t being a regular person not enough? Even when I think about how I want my identity on personal social media should be, it has always been suggested to show a certain feel of being a founder. Of course, I am guilty as charged because why should I think such thing and even have this thought in the first place.

Every introduction I have heard or given, the name always follows “I am xyz”. In fact, when I go to networking events now or introduce myself anywhere, I always say that I work as xyz, and not as I am that role. We have started knowing anyone just based on what they do and not what they are. When we think about getting closer to someone, it is still a long way before we are actually interested in who the other person actually is. Let alone social media, even in the real work, we are associated with the successes and failures of the career path we choose.

With this association, we are attached to a certain expectation of results, and so every conversation is now just about it. If you are a student, the conversations revolve around studies, if an entrepreneur, it is always about how can the work be more optimised, and so on. We have truly forgotten to just create anything just for the sake of it. If we do create anything, and if it is perfect or nearly perfect, it is shared with everyone we know. If it is not, nobody knows the existence of it. I remember when I had just started primary school, 12-15 years back (damn I just realised how old I am getting), we used to attend every activity class to build some hobby. When did this change into a constant rush of tuitions and now the work cycle?

I love writing and dancing and creating art (sometimes). But I have not encountered any conversation that started with, “What have you written recently?” or “What’s the recent choreography you learned?”. I, obviously, don’t expect it from anyone, especially those who don’t know me personally, but I have seen people not asking anyone about their recent interaction with their hobbies. With us it has always been, “How’s the business going?”. Everyone knows we have become work machines but does anyone know how to step down from it and be a human first?

As I started to think about the flow of my unfiltered content (irony, I know), the first thought that came into my mind was “What will people think?”. Don’t get me wrong, it is not that I am afraid of being raw. It is more about the audience seeing me with no identity and just a person. No, I don’t want to be known as a founder. I don’t want to think twice before I share something raw. Unfortunately, I have also become a part in the work machine. I fear sharing my thoughts to anyone if it does not become a lesson for someone at the end, because then why should I even be sharing it?